I get to the end of chapter 3 and it says to consider my page 23 vision. I stop to think about what I am believing God do in my life, what I believe is impossible. I write down a prayer and it seems selfish but in my spirit I know why I want it but can't get my thoughts or words to come together. I get very upset but not a crying upset but a mad upset!!! You could even say I was very pissed off (not a common mood for me)!
I serve God and people with ALL that I am, I am not perfect and have room for improvement just like anyone else. I am believing God to bring me inner healing from the inside out from my past. I need God to prepare my mind, body and spirit for what he has instore for me. I need total healing to be who I am supposed to be. He is preparing my heart for the person I am suppose to be with, I know this because I can see how I am changing. He is "tweeking" my thinking and view that was distorted long ago by the circumstances of my life. He is revealing himself and his views through his word in my life.
Sometimes it gets hard to wait on healing when you know God can step in and make it all better in an instant. However, if he does that then you miss the struggle that pulls you toward him. You wouldn't seek him to be your comforter and he couldn't reveal who he is when you need it most.
I have an overcoming and determined spirit it has kept me going thus far in life and will keep me going in the future. My healing is gradual and keeps me taking steps forward in my faith. I know the miracles God has already performed in my life and I can't wait to see what else he plans to do with me. I must wait on the Lord, be strong and take heart for my God is in control.
GIVE.ME.FAITH. opening video from Elevation Church on Vimeo.
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