Freakin for real??

Life has its highs where you feel top of the world, so close to God then in an instant things change. To be honest it sucks!!! I want to live on the high of God forever yet I can't because we live in the world! God will bring justice to those who wrong him and his people. I must trust in him and him alone. He knows all even the things I don't understand. I am praying for his will, guidance and a job that lines up with what he wants me to do....NOT what I want.

Praise God for all the blessings in my life, my friends, my family and my future. I am about to embark on a new adventure in a new home with two additions :) and sad at the same time that I will be losing two little ones (my cats). I have to make sacrifices to have God's blessings sometimes but he will give me peace :) I love you God!!!

A happy meeting

I felt so blessed to spend my birthday night with a dear friend Jenny and at the TWLOHA speaking event. Jamie started TWLOHA years ago but it didn't start out as a cause. It all started from a burden to accept an invitation to go help a stranger. His random act of kindness sparked a friendship that changed a girl's life, who then allowed him to share her story. It started as a simple blog posted on the internet then it was a tag line to simply check out a blog on the web which turned into a message being heard around the world. I felt a joy to learn Jamie is a Christian who has full faith in God and that he is leading his life.

I believe in the message of TWLOHA. It's so simple yet most people can't...just love others! Relationships are hard but they are worth it! I first heard of TWLOHA while randomly surfing the net 1 1/2 years ago. I watched the video about the cause and it sparked something in my heart. I realized I had nothing to be ashamed of...I use to be a cutter who turned to drugs/alcohol and sex when the pain I held onto for 24 years couldn't be numbed anymore. I traded one addiction for another. Renee's message made me feel empowered to release the shame I carried for so many years.

I began a journey that has taken years to walk through with God's help. I am not ashamed of what I have been through...this was hard for some of my closest friends to understand. So, they walked away and I let them go! I can't be ashamed of what God wants me to do and that is to have a voice. I am to help others to let them release the pain they hold onto, show them God is loving, forgiving, merciful and a healer!

If I remained silent the world would never know what God has done for me and through me. I may be judged and lose friends on earth which has and will cause me pain but my rewards will come in Heaven!

Know that your story, your voice is important and should be heard! Never be ashamed...God loves you unconditionally!!!

Much love!

Can 35 minutes change your life?

Did you answer the title fast or stop to think? I spent the weekend at a OneThing09 conference. It is a place where worship, prayer and teaching takes place. I have been in a midst of change over the past 4 months. My life has been flipped, turned upside down...yet there is a peace in the chaos. It's about God and only about him! I heard of a place that would answer all my dreams of living and serving God every day...I would have to give up my dreams and trust God to know he is in control and he knows what is best for me. I only see the current picture and feel the emotions of the moment. Trusting God means he knows the bigger picture and he can change the desires on my heart to live TOTALLY for him which is where I find my true satisfaction!

The future is starting to unfold while the preparation begins!

TWLOHA coming to FSU 3/20/09

YAY....what an awesome birthday present to hear Renee speak! This cause, her story changed my life FOREVER and allowed me to know its okay to talk about my cutting past! Her story helped me, my story has helped others, what can you talk about to help those around you?



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