Let me be myself - 3 Doors Down along with my own reflection

Have you ever had someone you poured everything into? Your heart, soul, energy, money, etc...you gave them everything. Yet you always felt like it wasn't enough. They had this control over you and made you feel like you were nothing unless you did what they wanted and always went along with their plans. They never stop to think that you just wanted to be yourself. I don't want to ever live in someone else's shadow again. I want to be myself and live for myself. When I meet the man I will spend the rest of my life with I want him to always stand beside me and not smother me. At some point you will stop breathing and not know what to do anymore when all you have ever known is control.

They are right!

I have been battling my past and my present which will ultimately affect my future. I sinned and have repented, asked God to forgive me. He has! He died on a cross for my sins. I now must forgive myself and learn from my mistake. Life will never be the same but how can it be? Each day offers new lessons to be learned. Thank you God for sending so many people into my life today to tell me I am human and yes I fell short of the Glory of God but I am his child, he loves me and since I asked for forgiveness I am forgiven. I need time to heal and re-group. I give so much that right now I have nothing left. I need to be still and spend time in God's presence and just be with him. He is the only one that can bring me true joy and happiness. He loves me unconditionally with no underlying reasons or agendas. He loves me for me because he made me the way he wants me....faults and all. I love you God! Thank you for never giving up on me!

Yay...I'm back with a new blog location

I have been beaten down and left battered, bruised and crushed but I am STILL standing. I am re-grouping and trying to determine where to go from here. Stay tuned for more details :)

Back again...for some strange reason it just feels good to know I am back online with my blog. I am ready for a new start...I am leaving all things old in the past and going forward for new friends, memories, adventure and a new life. My bags are packed but I can't decide if I want my new start to be here or if one of the 50 states offers a new start. Guess you'll have to wait and see....LOL, just like me!