Every have one of those days??

All week I have been dreading tonight. I haven't known why until now. I'm 12 hours away from home and I haven't been home in 3 months. However, my entire life has flipped upside down in the past 4 months and there are A LOT more changes to come. I really miss my family and wish I could be there...at this point I am tempted to just drive home to get a hug from my mom and have her tell me face to face "everything will be okay". I just have to realize that everything happens for a reason and God allows things to happen to us (sometimes these things are a result of our "bad" decisions) but it's all for a purpose. Every life is created for a reason. I battle with the idea of moving home but I know God wants me here. I have a mission at hand and until I am moved I will serve faithfully right here.

What side of the coin do you live on?

The way I see it a coin gives us two choices, heads up (rising for battle) or tails up (defeated). Which side do you live on?

I am currently reading Warrior Chicks by Holly Wagner...it is an amazing book!

Here are a couple reminders I have read in the first 2 chapters:

1 - When we weather trials it builds our strength. Embrace the battle and be glad God loves you enough to make you a better person.

2 - Preparation is key. "If we are not prepared then when adversity comes our strength will be small. We can not let emotions rule us, if we don't rise then we will defined by our fall." I want my life defined by the getting up and rising to the occasion. I do not want to live in defeat.

Warriors are aggressive or experienced in battle. They possess dedication that money can not buy. They fight because of what they can give not what they will get out of it. A Warrior will die for their cause and will do whatever it takes to ensure victory.

Who are you?

I am a Warrior for God!

Project Love

WOW, this month has been awesome with our Heartless series! All aspects of my life were taken to new levels from friendships, worship, ministries and my life! I feel like all the hard work and faithfulness of the GCTV family was blessed beyond belief by God. He is so amazing! Diverge has seen almost 20 new students in 3 weeks since the merge. Our homeless shelter compassion project was a HUGE success and many of the people there came to church today! I love seeing all the new faces and the work God is doing. As I gear up for my visit to NYC this project prepared me for some of what I will see there and I can't wait to see how God uses me and changes the course of my life.

I was baptised today!!!! PRAISE GOD! Today was more than being dunked under water it represents a new life, the new creation I am in Him. I have been healed from a past life of abuse, hurts, disappointments and so much more. Yet, I love and forgive everyone who has ever crossed my path. I pray for them all to come to know God the way I do.

Over the past few days I have received several comments on how joyful and truly happy I appear within the past 5-6 weeks. The funny part is that it is totally a God thing...I lost everything from friends, a family member, finances, my job, everything but I never lost God. He clung to me as tight as I held onto him! He saved me and brought me through it all. The victory is mine in his name!

I love you God, thank you for never giving up on me even when I wanted to give up on myself!!!

GCTV Grand Opening 2-1-09

WOW, It's been a month since I have written a blog. I have had so much happen and yet it is ironic I haven't shared it. God is good times a zillion!!!!!!

God brought the people we have been praying for during our fast, some of us have been praying for years. God honored our sacrifices, he blessed us. Sunday morning I started working in kids church and it was amazing to see new kids come in there to learn about God.

There was one point when I had 4-5 kids looking up at me asking me to play a game with them. How could I say no? I didn't I got down on their level and showed them how God loves them by listening and taking time to spend with them. I think so many of us get busy in life that we forget what the kids need. They need for us to show them love, this is the love Jesus shows us, we are his children and he is there for us when we need it.

I hope to one day have a family but if that is not the path God puts me on then I will still honor him by loving these kids! They are the chosen generation that needs trained up in his Word.

Another blessing was a peace God gave me about a situation I have been dealing with for awhile. He also, sent the people :) and blessed me with time to fellowship with my small group and friends.

God is so amazing!