Wow...this week was great, I started my new job and love it! I worked 3 jobs Friday and had a blast sitting two great kids :) I also got to catch up with a sweet elderly lady who has been such a blessing to me.
Then Saturday I got to spend the day in Destin with my friends celebrating a good friends birthday. We made it back to Tally just in time to head to another party for an awesome guy who was having a birthday too. I felt so blessed to know I have such great friends in my life.
Then Sunday I spent the first service with a dear friend serving in the nursery with six AWESOME babies. I had so much fun! GCTV worship band rocked and PB gave a great message! I was so proud of my friend Sabrenna for sharing her testimony today at church! I love my church and church family especially my small group...a few of us went out to lunch like we always do and today just reminded me why I love these girls so much! We do life together and no matter what we know that none of us is perfect yet we stick together to get through. These women are strong, powerful women of God and I am so proud to call them my sisters in Christ!
Finally...I closed the last chapter on my 3rd and final move of the summer tonight. I am glad to be unpacking at my new place and getting time to spend with my new roomies. Thank you Jesus for saving me and loving me no matter what...you always put me back on track :)
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Sunday, August 23, 2009
My focus must be beyond the pain...
This past week has been exciting, challenging and very eventful. The end of summer has drawn to a close along with a couple of my jobs. I moved into my new place with two of my friends and I start a new job this Monday. God is in control! I see his plans for me unfolding in front of my eyes. The message today at church hit home so hard. Some days for me mean that I spend an hour or two praying before I get out of bed...a lot of the time it is me begging God to give me the strength to stand. I don't openly share my pain with people because I do not want to be judged or for anyone to feel sorry for me so I allow the battle to be a personal one.
I have been in a flare up this week that has caused me to really have to focus on life, simple tasks are not simple but I will NEVER give up. God is with me each step of the way. Here is the key to why today hit me...just like PB, God gave me a vision of working with young women who have been or are in the midst of putting their lives back together. I am to open a home like a transitional house for them. I was given this vision many years ago. I have been losing my grip on this dream and passion God put in my heart because of the chronic pain I am suffering from. Today God worked through PB to light that fire again in my heart to do His work for His kingdom at all costs even those of physical pain.
I feel eternally blessed to know that four years ago this month God opened a door for me to move to Tallahassee where I only knew one person at the time in order to be apart of this amazing movement he is doing at GCTV. My once broken life has been marked with a purpose to reach thousands and I will do that through the book I have been called to write and this home! I am glad I have the church family I do, they are real and transparent! They are just want I need to do this thing we call LIFE!
I have been in a flare up this week that has caused me to really have to focus on life, simple tasks are not simple but I will NEVER give up. God is with me each step of the way. Here is the key to why today hit me...just like PB, God gave me a vision of working with young women who have been or are in the midst of putting their lives back together. I am to open a home like a transitional house for them. I was given this vision many years ago. I have been losing my grip on this dream and passion God put in my heart because of the chronic pain I am suffering from. Today God worked through PB to light that fire again in my heart to do His work for His kingdom at all costs even those of physical pain.
I feel eternally blessed to know that four years ago this month God opened a door for me to move to Tallahassee where I only knew one person at the time in order to be apart of this amazing movement he is doing at GCTV. My once broken life has been marked with a purpose to reach thousands and I will do that through the book I have been called to write and this home! I am glad I have the church family I do, they are real and transparent! They are just want I need to do this thing we call LIFE!
Monday, August 3, 2009
Enough Opinions for one day...
I love everyone and I am respectful to other's when they voice their opinions to me. However, God is the only one who controls my life. I am to the point I don't feel like I fit in anywhere. Some people only speak to me when they need me, what about when I need them? It is hurtful they are no where around! Why do some people only think God leads their lives and they (as man) need to direct other's on how to live. God is the only one who knows his will for our lives and if we are spirit led then he is the one directing our path.
It is no wonder I feel like walking away from EVERYTHING because I am not stupid, man does not direct my life and I don't need other's opinions when God Almighty is in control!
I can't move into new territory by standing still. I must test the waters to know if that is where God wants me and I shouldn't be made to feel guilty for trying to get into His will...isn't that what he calls us to do?
It is no wonder I feel like walking away from EVERYTHING because I am not stupid, man does not direct my life and I don't need other's opinions when God Almighty is in control!
I can't move into new territory by standing still. I must test the waters to know if that is where God wants me and I shouldn't be made to feel guilty for trying to get into His will...isn't that what he calls us to do?
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