My focus must be beyond the pain...

This past week has been exciting, challenging and very eventful. The end of summer has drawn to a close along with a couple of my jobs. I moved into my new place with two of my friends and I start a new job this Monday. God is in control! I see his plans for me unfolding in front of my eyes. The message today at church hit home so hard. Some days for me mean that I spend an hour or two praying before I get out of bed...a lot of the time it is me begging God to give me the strength to stand. I don't openly share my pain with people because I do not want to be judged or for anyone to feel sorry for me so I allow the battle to be a personal one.

I have been in a flare up this week that has caused me to really have to focus on life, simple tasks are not simple but I will NEVER give up. God is with me each step of the way. Here is the key to why today hit me...just like PB, God gave me a vision of working with young women who have been or are in the midst of putting their lives back together. I am to open a home like a transitional house for them. I was given this vision many years ago. I have been losing my grip on this dream and passion God put in my heart because of the chronic pain I am suffering from. Today God worked through PB to light that fire again in my heart to do His work for His kingdom at all costs even those of physical pain.

I feel eternally blessed to know that four years ago this month God opened a door for me to move to Tallahassee where I only knew one person at the time in order to be apart of this amazing movement he is doing at GCTV. My once broken life has been marked with a purpose to reach thousands and I will do that through the book I have been called to write and this home! I am glad I have the church family I do, they are real and transparent! They are just want I need to do this thing we call LIFE!