Crossroads...

Have you ever felt like you needed a change in your life? Maybe you knew you needed it but didn’t know if you had the strength to follow through with it. Has God ever given you a little nudge to see if you would stand the test? Well…that’s me, I am standing at the crossroad of my life right now; it’s a place between the past and the future, also known as the present. I have to decide if what I have always known and done is how I want to continue to live. Thus far it has sustained me and gotten me by but lately I find I’m longing more for God. I’m also longing to live fully in the body of Christ. Up to this point I have been so focused on certain people God has placed in my past I somehow lost focus of everyone else. I need fellowship with people who share the same passion for Christ that I do. People who want to know Him and make Him known. Not people who just have knowledge of him but those who lay down their own life to live for him. We as the body of Christ are to reach the lost and broken to show them God’s love and to do that we must know Him and love Him deeply.

I imagine myself standing on a large cross; I’m at the point where both pieces of the boards meet. I can’t go back, nothing will ever be the same and I can’t live in the past. Yet, I don’t want to stay stagnate moving from left to right. I must endure on this journey to keep rising to the top. I want to keep growing spiritually to be closer to God. Life is a battle; there are moments of peace and time for war (spiritual). Each season offers new challenges and if you chose to accept your assignments from God you will reap blessings beyond belief but it may cause you to have to stretch beyond anything you have ever experienced and hang on in the tough times, when faith is all you have to hold. God never said life would be easy, he did tell us he would never leave or forsake us.

Sometimes I don’t think we know exactly how broken we were until God starts a new process in us to awaken and refresh us to all he is, what he has for us and all he wants us to be in Him. When God has called you to move you must wait for him to give you instructions. What he tells me may not be what he tells someone else in the same situation as me. Be cautious of your own heart and what it wants versus what God wants you to do. The mind is a tricky place when emotions come into the picture. It’s easy to forget all the bad times when your mind is only playing a tape of the Good Ole days. Remember God is moving you for a reason with a specific purpose in mind, he knows the Master Plan…we don’t. Trust him, have faith and hold on…his adventure is just beginning.

An ah-ha moment...

Have you ever felt like you were floating through life not knowing or understanding your purpose? I had one of those days, right now I don't know if I have seen a glimpse of the future or if it will be the present moment. My moment was Tuesday night...I have been asking God why am I here...what do you want me doing...do you want me to move...just speak to me...I need to hear from you.

Weeks of seeking and my life changed in one phone call. A received a phone call from someone in need of my help. Without a second thought I hopped into reaction mode to help them. I realized that I am needed here...there are lost and broken people who I can help in this world. Although I am not perfect, I give God my life to use me as he choses.

At times it costs me "fun" to the world and many judge me for not being like them but that's okay...my reward is not here on earth but in Heaven. I will not live for this world when I know paradise is waiting for me when Jesus returns to take his children home with him. However, make no mistake if you do not know Jesus then the father will cast you into the lake of Hell. There will be no way for you to plead your case of the right things you did on earth. If you did not know the father then he will not know you on judgement day.

Hell is a place of torture not a party. Those sent there will only know suffering and will never have peace. They will watch those in Heaven and see all that paradise had to offer...yes had to offer because Hell is not a place for restoration but a place of final resting. Once you are sent there you will never leave!

I repent of my sins and know that I am not perfect and fall short of the Glory of God. That is why I need his love and mercy to help me make it. He is so wonderful and I love Jesus with all my heart and soul!

Time Heals Wounds???? No way!

It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone. quoted by: Rose Kennedy

I don't buy it! I have 32 years of hurt that people have done to me...all stored up in my heart. Now with that said I have forgiven them but it still hurts sometimes.